It's a new year.

It's been a long time since I've posted. I felt the need to write. So much has changed over the past few months, and now were in a new year....


It's a new year, 2011. A year that is going to be scary as hell. Graduating college, it's time to go out in the real world.

2010. There's so much to say about it. I started off 2010 with a better attitude, I lived and I learned so much. I stepped out of my shell. I opened myself up to the world, to a place I was so afraid of. I've had such ups and downs in my life lately, things that made me want to give up, but then I think about all the things that I love, the things that make life worth while. I just read back to see the thing's I have written in the past months and I was so...whats the word...shocked?... From last year until today I have changed so much for the better. I am so happy of the person I am turning into. I must admit, everything I said I wanted I got, but it was all at a cost.

My kitten, Joey<3, I had him for a few months, he was amazing. I loved him. But after a series of unfortunate events I had to get rid of him. I luckily had a friend willing to give him a good home and I get to see pictures time to time. He was my baby, I know he was cat, but he became like my best friend.

2010, what else can I say, there's so much. I started school, college, one of the scariest things I've ever had to do. It meant I had to grow up, take responsibility. I love it.

It's now January 1, 2011. I have 3 weeks left of school. 3 WEEKS. Would you believe it!?!? It went by so fast. It has been amazing, such a life changing experience. I got to meet people I never imagined. I made great friends and had so much fun. It's been amazing and as much as I don't want it to end, I can't wait to see what life has in store for me next.

As I've written in the past; Live, Laugh, Love; those three words mean so much to me. I've realized life is to short to sit back and hide. I put myself out there, in a scary world ready to get hurt, but what doesn't kill me makes me stronger right? I've learned a little something about faith this year. I have faith. Whatever is meant to be will happen, and I will be happy with any outcome. I will work hard, and get where I'm needed.

It's 12:05am, it means it's the 2nd day of the year.


I was born on March 11, so I believe that 2011 will be a very lucky year for me.

that's all for now,

KN

sugar!

I am on a sugar high, and have a huge headache...that's all!

Kitty Cat

Sooo, I might be getting a Kitty! I am going to name him Joey. He is gorgeous and I am in love! The only problem is, I need to BEG for my job back like tomorrow. Haha, I want him so bad, I always get what I want.

School Venting

Blood Smears... for most of you, you have no idea what this is. For medical laboratory workers you know. Today was the first day of practising our smears. I'm really to shoot myself. The teacher says that we probably wont get it for about a week but for me that's not good! I like getting things the first time, or at least the first day. I did over 50 blood smears and didn't get one right. I'm so annoyed. And to make it even worse I have a test tomorrow!!! I should be studying but I decided to take a few minutes to vent, so I can focus on studying.


okay, good luck to me.
I'll be back soon to blog about something important!

KN

Feelings....

Feeling...looking up the word in the dictionary, with over 10 meanings, I'm still confused by it. I have feelings for you, thinking you have feelings for me. Could it be possible? Could the unthinkable happen? I'm faced with these questions every day. I wish everyone could just be straight up, say it as it is, without getting in trouble that is.
There are so many rules... rules rules rules! Don't do this, but do that. I understand the concept of rules and boundaries, I really do. It's just unfair in certain situations. I'm infatuated, yes you heard me, INFATUATED. Someone I can't have but want so badly. It's not the thrill of the chase either. I know what I want and I will work hard to get it. Breaking the rules or not, I can keep a secret.

All I want is a clandestine love affair.

Confidence. It's different than being cocky. I am confident. I will get what I want, with my head held high.

JUST FOR THE RECORD....

you can mess with me all you want, but mess with my girlfriend and you're in trouble.

my hitlist is at 4! and counting...

peaceout.
KN

It's my FRIDAY!

Okay, so I know it's really only Thursday but I'm still in school and I get tomorrow off so it feels like Friday! I LOVE IT. School, in the summer, I know everyone thinks I'm crazy. But honestly, I love it. It keeps me busy, and I'll be finished in January. I get my degree and I'm off to work. (Not until a well deserved vacation at least, hehe!) So now your thinking, 'what is she in school for?' I'm going to tell you, but I'd rather not. You'll probably think I'm crazy. I'm going for a medical lab technician, I'm that nasty person that pokes you and takes all your blood, and analyses your piss and shit, GREAT JOB eh! hahah anyways enough about me....


I'm watching 'access hollywood' and Janis Dickinson is touching upon the plastic surgeon that died. The story is he was texting and driving while on a cliff and his dog was in the car. The doctor died but the dog survived. Janis went on saying how we shouldn't text and drive because of these beautiful animals we have. I'm a huge animal lover, don't get me wrong, but before you say animals in the car, maybe mention CHILDREN. I'll cut her some slack though, she did mention children, but not until after the dog.... but anyways, may he rest in peace. Let this be a message to you all on how dangerous texting and driving is.

15 more minutes until Big Brother 12 starts! What is going to happen tonight? With Matt and Lane on the block. Matt having the special Veto. He is obviously going to take himself off the block. His only move is putting Kathy on the block, unless this special Veto lets him put up Brendon. I don't think so. If Kathy goes up, she will get kicked out. Hayden, Enzo, and Matt will vote to evict Kathy; and Britt and Ragan should vote to evict Kathy as well... I hope Lane doesn't go home!!!

So anyways that's my Thursday night!

Actually I got some fist pumping action to enjoy at 10 tonight with Jersey Shore season 2! awesome! I can't wait.

Until next time,


byes!

KF